Spring is in the air, and my desire to upgrade my home is well and truly upon me. For too long I've have procrastinated about getting my hands dirty with this place, and it's now getting to the stage where I am not enjoying time spent here - casting a critical eye to floor walls and ceilings, with the feature wall in the lounge an omnipresent reminder of my failure to act to date. Yesterday I had breakfast with some friends who recently purchased new flooring from a shop in Alexandria, and highly recommended the service. We went to said outlet and I was able to finally arrange for my flat to be measured up and a few ideas for new carpet (or possibly floorboards, but word has it that, like almost everything else in this f*cking complex, wooden floors are not allowed).
It was important for me to have some independent feedback on my choices. Unlike most people, I feel an almost sense of paralysis if asked to decide something like this on my own. Sometimes I really like to be driven and pressured (albeit subconsciously) to make a decision and bite the bullet. I was unable to purchase this unit until it was first critically evaluated and approved by many of my peers. So the measurements are happening next Saturday morning and further decisions will have to be made. I'm quite excited at the prospect of finally taking action with this place.
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Last night I was at a 40th birthday party for a good friend. It was my first 40th, and it won't be my last. It had me thinking about how milestones in life are not always defined by your own actions - we've all been to the 18th's, the 21st's, the 30th's and now moving into the 40th's zone. As my own years progress I see things so much differently to when I was in my twenties or earlier - I always remember a close Aunt telling me how she feels just like the same person she was when she was 18, only now she's 48. This was when I was 12 and unable to see that Mothers, Fathers, Aunts etc actually had any kind of life other than their roles in my own. I remember thinking her comment as mildly ridiculous. I see it all more clearly now.
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Ah spare a thought for poor old Icelanders these days. A country long positioned at the top or near-top the quality of life/GDP per capita ratings with a unique image of "cool" has come crashing to earth in a wholly undignified way in these times of GFC (global financial crisis - the newest TLA of our time). But what an example of almost entirely unregulated market-capitalism that bit off more than it could chew. A country with the population of Canberra attempting to wield such financial influence across Europe almost entirely funded by debt - a debt that the 300,000 citizens now have to face up to. It's scary to think that it could happen, but more worrying to realise that it could have been let happen in the first place.
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Speaking of this 40th last night, it was a fascinating mix of demographics, sexualities, prejudices and tensions across the 20 or so invitees. I am not a big fan of large groups for dinner in a restaurant at the best of times - the predinner drinks where individuals have to meet can be horrendously awkward for those of us with a shy disposition - especially if you only know a handful of other people (and much worse if you only know the celebrated); the jostle for position at the (inevitably) long table for dinner to ensure you are seated with at least some hope of interaction with fellow diners and not stuck with granny and the kids; the inevitable "Where are you from" questions that can lead to (a) long stories of previous visits to Ireland and "do you know Pat Murphy" type questions, or (b) "here have a potato - HAHAHAHA" type comments - in good spirit of course - but SOOOO tired and unfunny. Then there is the awkward silences where a conversation with a neighbour fizzles out and both of you are left sipping your wine at maniacal pace or smilingly listening to the conversation on the other side of the table to engage in something and look like your having a wonderful time.
Now - I DID have a great time as it turns out but that was because I mostly tried to avoid some of the hairier moments where mutual invitees clearly had little love for each other. It could have been fun to watch but I'm too much of a "can't-we-just-all-get-along-for-the-occasion" type person to detach myself completely from these atmospheres. The bathroom was a welcome break throughout the night.
And one particular Aunt seated opposite me, who had more notions of grandeur than Liberace at a Las Vegas spectacular, and painted to similar levels, was very curious to know why I had made the move to Australia in the first place. I never really have an answer for this - I'm not entirely sure why I moved other than an itch to travel - but this never really satisifes the person who asks the question, and they inevitably start ruminating on my reasons in a Psychology 101 kind of way. " What attracted you to this land?" she condescendingly inquired. I blathered a bit about Australia feeling young, dynamic, sunny and fun, relaying my experiences from media such a Neighbours, INXS and Kylie Minogue videos. As a young boy I was always drawn to the excitement of the place. "A KYLIE MINOGUE video?" she boomed like an incredulous Lady Bracknell. "Is that the only reason you are here? Tell me, do you vote?"
I repeated my explanation of the big picture that influenced me in my youth, and media was of course a part of this. "You're here because of KYLIE MINOGUE!?!?" she shrieked again, completely ignoring my response. "Please tell me you don't vote in our country" she smirkingly uttered, while leaning back in her chair. "I'm a citizen and I do vote" I said "and maybe people like you should look a bit closer at the culture vacuum that Australia was and lament the fact that there was little MORE than Kylie Minogue or Neighbours to entice anyone!"
This, of course, wasn't true at the time, but I wanted to shut her up and I figured she wasn't in a position to refute with much greater content. After that she turned her attention elsewhere and I went back to lunatic wine sipping...

RANT: There are certain things that should not be tolerated and no amount of insanity, poor upbringing or drug/drunkeness can excuse. Lighting bushfires, throwing rocks at cars and buses (seems to have become a favoured pastime of unruly teenage suburban shitheads of late) but the latest mind-numbingly f*cking stupid thing is 
